sunday drive - a dedication

am i designated to end up feeling this way over and over and over again? contemplating outcomes of what could have been or what could have been different if i hadn't been that big of a idiot. if i hadn't let things slip out of control. if i hadn't let things slip out of my grasp. laying down i wonder what you could be up to. how many smiles you could be sharing with other people. how many kisses you could be handing out to the ones you care about. wondering whether i would ever end up in your list again. am i just a has-been? am i something that you passed over? am i something that you let go off a long time ago? or am i something insignificant that you didn't need to let go off in the 1st place?

WHAT COULD YOU BE DOING THAT IS SO MUCH FUN?
WITHOUT ME BY YOUR SIDE. WITHOUT ME BY YOUR SIDE.
I WILL TAKE A STEP BACK.
I'LL LET YOU AHEAD.
I'll TAKE A STEP AWAY AND SEE IF YOU COME BACK.
THERES NO MORE TRYING TO MAKE THIS SO RIGHT.
WE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME.
WE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME.
WE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME.
UNTIL YOU'RE DONE.